***31 December 2004 –Cover blown

 

I have to write this down on paper, with my hand. Because I’m in the wilderness now, made a little camp to sleep. Fortunately it isn’t very cold and not clouded so it wasn’t very hard to build up the camp. It has been a while since I spent my time in the wilderness. Xtyx teached me how to survive, how to make camps and such.

 

 

Well the reason that I’m spending my time in the wilderness of Corellia now is because of the conversation with Vernant that I had this afternoon. I met him at Tatooine, he said that he wanted to speak with me as soon as possible. I followed him to his house. His house is completely deserted, alone in the desert. When he didn’t look I made a note in my datapad with an estimation of the coordinates.

I have never seen so much stuff in a house, it was completely stuffed with plants, furniture and such. But it didn’t look very chaotic, a bit cozy. But well.. back to my point: he said that he knows that I’m a member of the Alliance. I was shocked, he didn’t tell how he knows this. I never told him, how can he know this?!?

 

 

Then he acted almost the same as he did to Mi-Na (from what she told): he said that he is an ex-Imperial spy and he regrets his actions very much. Families got executed for what he did. Then he started to cry and he acted very emotional. After a while I got very emotional too, because I thought about my family. Vernant told me that the Empire executed families.. so is my family executed too? The thought about this made me cry and I told him that my family is arrested too.

Then he gave me information. I don’t know if this information is true, but if it is, it is very handy for the Alliance. Draxxus and his brother are members of Ovello, a criminal organization. They are ex-slavers but they still keep slaves. Now they deal in weapons and such. He told me names of other members of this organization. I think back to yesterday, when I was with them. They didn’t act so bad as Vernant told me.. is there some other reason that he doesn’t want me to have contact with them (he tried very much to make me scared of Ovello), or is Ovello really that evil?
But well, the reason that we spoke about Ovello is because Vernant thinks that Draxxus detonated that bomb; he was there at the time it happened and he is a bomb expert, according to Vernant. And I was wanted because of this, just because I didn't move back fast enough when they were clearing the streets.

He told me more things about the Empire, and then his wife came and they talked about the bombing. Olis has to turn herself in (for freeing me), but if I turn myself in too she will be punished less. Turn myself in? Yes.. I SEEM TO BE WANTED AGAIN, for that bombing! Trecrix, the leader(?) of the MEPD seems to have come back on the decision to release me and is looking for me now. They think that that bomb is mine! And Vernant begs me to turn myself in ‘they will try and find evidence that I’m innocent’. He acts really emotional, does he really feel the things that he shows and say the things he really thinks? Or is he a very good actor? He is a shrink, shrinks are weird people..

I said that I would think about it and I will contact him again.. but Vernant knows that I’m a rebel, he was (or maybe still is!) an Imperial spy. I would be crazy to turn myself in, my fate would be in his hands and that of the MEPD and the MEPD works for the Empire! I will not turn myself in, I will not risk my life and the fate of task force Banshee and the Alliance. Maybe I can try and contact Draxxus himself..? Trecrix will hunt at me till he finds me (that is what Vernant told me) and the longer it takes, the worse the consequences  will become for me when he (or maybe a bounty hunter..??) captures me. So then I have to hide for a while and wait till they have forgotten, or take a complete identity change. Maybe the latter will be the best. I hope there will be no bounty hunters after me, would it? Maybe I better stay off-planet for a while..

After the conversation I left to Tyrena Starport. There are almost no Imperials here. I tried to contact others from TFB and reached Lella. Maybe Vernant bugged me or something, maybe he put a tracking device on me I don’t know. Or maybe I’m being followed.. I feel totally paranoia. She checked me for tracking devices but didn’t find anything. In the meantime I have made a data disk with the information that Vernant gave me and I gave it to her. She told me that it would be best if I don’t go to Azaki now (for if people are following me) and so I moved into the wilderness. I hope she is able to give it to Larec, Gou-Geo or another superior.. I have turned my commlink off now and tomorrow I’ll go back to the city and try to contact the Alliance again.

I was stupid to tell Vernant about my family, if he really acted his emotions then I acted weakly, I just walked into his ‘trap’. I know I'm a sensitive and emphatic person, but I better not immediately give in to this every time, not while it is still war.