Today we have another day off, so I spend my time updating this diary and making the description of ‘Anbato’ for Larec.
After done this I return to the Fallen Star to see if there is something to do there. I spend a lot of time in Entha, acting like a casual ‘citizen’ and several times this got me useful information. I wonder if something will happen tonight, or maybe not and then I can relax a bit. After entering I bump into.. Talln. I’m amazed and I talk with him, quietly. He tells me that he is released and that he is working here now as a bouncer. I ask him if he won’t get any troubles with the Garrison, he shrugs. After this I order my usual glass of brandy, when a stormtrooper enters the cantina, along with a droid. A stormtrooper.. alone? Then he waves to me, what the heck?
He walks onto the stage and then removes his helmet.. wow
it is Amakir! He gets some instruments and together with his droid he starts
giving a show, he does a bit of cabaret too. I think it is very funny to do a
performance in Imperial military armor and I wonder if he won’t get problems
with it. But I cannot watch this for long, as there enters Vernant. O o, I move
myself back in a corner as I don’t want to have problems. I still remember
vividly how mad he was at me about a week ago, that mad that I think he hasn’t
forgotten that yet. I know he is a psychiatrist of the medcentre and an
Imperial spy too, so I better avoid the man. But it is almost like he is in
contact with the Force, as he walks straight to me.
Why he seems to be angry is because ‘I destroyed his life and that of his fiancée, O’lis’. Because she is wanted now for that bombing and they had to run to another planet and she needed a new identity and they had to marry in secrecy.. I try to act back friendly but he keeps accusing me. I really feel offended by him, I try to explain that it was she that released me after the bombing happened, in her own initiative. But he doesn’t seem to be believing me, well I’m not going to feel guilty of something I haven’t done! I feel already guilty enough of what happened to my family. I got really, really angry at him and at some point this felt pretty good. To just tell somebody the truth, to just tell somebody that I’m sick of it, that I won’t take his crap any longer. What a jerk, and that for a shrink! I leave the building, others will have watched us but I don’t care at all.
I have to cry outside and I take a ride on my Dewback. I know Vernant is an Imperial spy but I have the feeling.. well if O’lis is his fiancée then she probable kept the information that we gave her secret. Because else I, Sedo and Kalendric would already be arrested by the Empire, wouldn’t we? Yesterday they could arrest us easily, but they didn’t.. As I encounter Vernant a lot of times (I see him at the medcentre and such) maybe I better try to talk this out. Darn he is a shrink!
I return to the cantina, again park my Dewback in front of
it and walk towards the entrance. Maybe my superiors of the Alliance think this
is a stupid action of mine, but I try to have a normal ‘relation’ to this man
as possible, act like I would act to anybody, also as part of my cover.
We finally manage to talk this out.. while I’m talking with him I see just a normal man in front of me, just like me and others. Yet he is an Imperial spy.. I wonder what his motivation is to spy for them, to turn us in. I have a reasonable conversation with him, even a bit friendly.. with a collaborator from the enemy! Then he gives me his business card and offers me therapy, after which he leaves, back to the cantina. I imagine having therapy with Vernant.. with a mind-doctor that is partial to the Empire. A shrink shouldn’t be partial! What a sneaky bastard, people tell him their biggest secrets and then he uses this information to turn them in when possible. ‘Trust me, I’m a psychiatrist. You can safely tell me anything, all your information will be confident’ yeah right!
Then I get distracted.. because I see a very big Dewback hopping towards the cantina. I rub my eyes, could that be Xtyx? I thought that he was arrested by the Imperials or something, haven’t heard of him for about 2 months now! He looks just like another Doshan, but as I watch him I come to the conclusion that this is definitely Xtyx. Just the way how he moves.. he looks happy to meet me and tells me that he has spent a while on Dosha, his homeworld. I feel a big sad that he hadn’t informed me about this. Just before he ‘disappeared’ there was that WANTED announcement of the Empire, with a description of me and him. I really thought that he was arrested, I had visited his house but nobody was there, I had tried to comm him but no answer. But there he stands in front if me, alive and healthy.
I feel the usual feeling when we are together, he acts just the same like other times, I feel like it is a few months earlier and that nothing has changed. I take advantage of this feeling, because it feels safe and without worries. I always have to laugh when Xtyx is in the neighborhood, he is funny. Also now: a waitress of the cantina asks him if he has any weapons with him. Answer of Xtyx: well I have two rocket launchers, a flamethrower, two lightning cannons and a vibro knuckler, is that a problem (he knew that there is a no-weapon policy)? You should have watched the woman’s face, ha ha! I like this kind of practical jokes of him. Xtyx has to leave and he mutters. I order two bottles of brandy and we start to drink outside. Again there is a bloody sandstorm and we seek shelter, Xtyx places himself onto a chair just outside the entrance of the cantina (where there is some shelter) and I spend some time inside, looking at the other guests and listening to the music. The waitress seems to be working alone and she looks very busy. I respect that, I wouldn’t like to do this kind of work at all. I start to feel light-headed and gamble something. Then Vernant appears, he seems to talk to a lot of people, maybe to get some customers..? He starts talking to me too, looks a bit drunk too. He asks me why I’m drinking, I tell him that sometimes this is relaxed, because then I can forget the troubles of my everyday life. He says that this isn’t the solution bla bla. Pff I know this too, he is definitely a shrink. “Really come to my office to talk about your troubles, I can help you.” “I’ll consider your offer.”, I tell and this is enough to make him leave me on my own again, with the bottle and the gambling table in front of me. The rest I don’t remember very good, I must have gambled some money and won.. or did I lose some money and.. yes there was that man he gave me some money and chocolate bars (that would help sober me up). He spent 3k for one of those bars.. holy Bantha, 3000 credits for a chocolate bar! I don’t remember his name anymore. Xtyx brought me to his home and there I fell asleep, and now I have the hangover of hell. But it was fun!