***19 April 2005 - Confusion

 

Jane followed the troopers into the house.

“Search the rooms!”, TK-253 ordered with a filtered voice.

She nodded and turned left. Somehow everything looked familiar, very familiar. She turned right and knew the way. She knew where the kitchen was etcetera.. how could she know this, had she ever been here? Confused she looked around while trying to continue her duty: find the droid. At an intersection she halted, waiting for the others. She didn’t want the droid to escape from door 1 when she had entered door 2. When the others arrived she turned right, into the living room. There was this stairs.. down were the couches. She scratched her head with a sigh, feeling more and more confused but also frustrated: she had recognized so much but the memories were gone. This house was really familiar for her, but no memory.. the Twi’lek with the baby in it’s arms.

“Doe.. search the rooms on the right.”, the trooper in charge ordered her.

“Yes sir.”, she answered emotionless and turned right.

Then she entered this room.. the child room.

Wow there has been put a lot of stuff in it since..

She stared at the poster on her right, at the chairs and the little table that was between them. Somehow this made her feel sad, and a bit hopeless. She held her breath and clenched the edge of the table with her right hand to prevent herself from falling, putting the other hand against her forehead.

Lyzzie..

For some reason she had to keep herself from crying, then realized where she was. With a frustrated sigh she returned to the living room. The troopers stared at her.

“Did you find anything, Doe?”, TK-253 asked her slowly.

“Euh no sir.”, she stammered.

She stared at the door on her right, that seemed to be locked.

“RK-438, blow up the door.”, TK-253 ordered the other trooper.

She stared at the armored man, that looked more like a robot, a faceless robot. But it was Andy that was inside of the armor, her boyfriend. She hoped that she would become a trooper too soon, one of the many advantages was that at least then she would know which one of the stormtroopers was Andy. They didn’t have numbers printed on their armor, only other troopers could see it on the semi transparent display, some sort of HUD that was projected on the lenses of their helmets.

 

She remembered how he had taken her to Mos Taike three days ago. It had been so romantic.. and nobody had disturbed them. For the first time they had been alone, without camera’s that recorded everything, even in the showers of the barracks there were camera’s..

But not on the hill of Mos Taike. They had made love to each other, it was her first time..

She remembered a day before this day.. it was hard to express their love to each other. They had been tickling each other in the showers but within a few minutes this trooper came in and lectured them. They both realized that they better not do these things in the base. They didn’t seem to like this..

 

She held her hands pressed against her ears, then a loud explosion was audible and she followed the two troopers into the room. There was the droid.. it almost looked like a human being, only a bit more pale. She clenched her teeth, also this droid looked pretty.. familiar. Just like the room, she stared at the sofa in front of her and bit her lip, feeling sad again.

They left the house.. then the droid started talking to.

“Salutations ma’am.”, it then said to her.

They left the house, heading towards the bikes.

“Ma’am.. you are looking.. well..”, the droid then said.

Jane raised an eyebrow at it, she was the only madam outside now. The droid was clearly talking to her.

“I have not seen you ma’am since..”

Jane opened her mouth, but then the droid twitched and it’s head bent forward. It was deactivated.

“Strap it to a bike.”, TK-253 ordered.

She helped Andy, or better said ‘RK-438’, strap the heavy droid onto one of the speederbikes. Then they left for the base.

When they arrived Jane stared at the droid as it got unstrapped and put back on the ground.

“RK-438, take Doe to town to relieve the others.”, TK-253 ordered.

She sighed quietly and followed the armored Andy back to the speeders, back to town.

In town Andy was called back to base immediately, she had to guard the entrance of the Fallen Star with GK-601 also called Deen Yodo. Together with Ern and Lantrian they were the highest in rank from Sentinal company, that was how the Mos Entha Imperial garrison was called.

Weird things were happening in the Fallen Star. They had been here before this same night, searching the cellar that had been surprisingly empty although the Doshan had told the troopers that there was something dangerous and for this reason they better not enter the cellar to search it. Sentinel company had put an observation point here now to see who entered the building etcetera. They stopped a woman, that also looked familiar to Jane. Again she started feeling pretty confused, and more and more frustrated.

“Cadet.. search the woman.”, GK-601 ordered Jane.

“Yes ma’am.”, she said and searched her, removing a bottle with some liquid and a package with pills. She had to give the pills to the trooper and opened the bottle to smell it. It smelled like some alcoholic beverage, stank a bit. Disgusted she closed the bottle again, staring at the wall in front of her. She felt her heart pounding and glanced at the woman again, and suddenly she fell a lot of rage and threw the bottle against the wall, looking at it as the pieces of glass fell into all directions.

“What was that good for, cadet?”, the trooper asked her.

“Euh I’m sorry ma’am.”, she stammered, as she didn’t know how she could ever answer that question..

They let the woman leave, she stared at her as she walked away from them.

“Why did you smash that bottle onto the wall?”, GK-601 asked her again.
”I’m sorry ma’am.”, she said softly, “I’m.. sorry..”

“I don’t want to know that, I want to know why you smashed that bottle onto the wall.”, the trooper repeated with an emotionless voice.

“I.. I don’t know.”, she answered.

“You don’t know?”

“Ma’am.. suddenly I fell a lot of anger and then I did that.. I don’t know why. I’m sorry..”, she stammered, feeling pretty uncomfortable.

The trooper nodded at her slowly.

“Well.. don’t you do that ever again.. unless ordered so!”

“Y.. yes ma’am.”

They continued keeping an eye on every citizen that entered or left the cantina for another few minutes.
”How are you sleeping lately, cadet?”, the trooper then asked Jane.

“Euh.. well better ma’am.”, she answered, and saw the trooper nodding at her.

“Good. It is very important for you to be in good shape so that you don’t bring your comrades in danger.”

Jane nodded at her.

“Don’t hesitate to bring the doctor another visit again.”

“Of course ma’am.. I do my best to serve the Emperor as well as possible and therefore keeping myself in sound health.”, Jane said sincerely.

They walked up the ramp, staring at all the citizens, sometimes stop one of them to search him or her or.. it.

Jane stared at the suns that were setting, she felt tired and a bit distracted.

No, keep your focus on the here and now.. else you cannot serve the Emperor well enough.. else you bring your comrades in danger.

But this house.. but this droid.. but this room.. but.. Lyzzie..

But that woman…

Suddenly she felt a bad headache.. some voice started talking in her head. She looked around bewildered, who was talking to her?

Why did you hurt us, why.. you betrayed us.. they betrayed you, they killed you..

“No they gave me a new life.”, she whispered, clenching her teeth with an angry glance.

They killed you..

She aimed her pistol wildly around herself..

“Cadet, holster your weapon.. now!”, GK-601 ordered her.

She complied.

“Now.. follow me. We are going back to base.”

“Yes ma’am.”, Jane answered and saw the trooper nodding at her slowly.

The trooper talked into her commlink, she couldn’t hear what she said. Slowly she followed GK-601 to the parking garage, mounting her speeder and taking off to the base. Why hadn’t that doctor cured her well enough, why was she still plagued with all these familiar things, nightmares and now.. voices? She clenched her fists feeling.. enraged.

“To the medbay with you.”, GK-601 said to her when they arrived at the base.

“Y.. yes ma’am.”, she said.

There was that humanoid droid..

“Doe, get over to TK-921.”, Ern ordered Jane.

“Yes sir.”, she said with a quiet sigh and moved to the trooper.

"I could never have thought you had been in an accident Juvenile", a clinical voice spoke, the droid’s voice.

She turned around and stared at it.

“Are you talking to me?”, she asked.

"Yes Juvenile, that is correct", the droid answered.

“Juvenile?”, Jane wondered aloud.

“Yes.. might I enquire as to the nature of the wounds?”, the droid continued.

“Wounds? I have no wounds… why do you call me ‘juvenile’?”

“This is correct miss.”, the droid replied.

“Cadet.”, a male voice spoke, she turned around and saw Ern standing next to her, “To the barracks.”

“Yes sir.”, she said emotionless and saluted him.

When she walked towards the barracks she glanced at the droid several times, feeling confused and pretty frustrated.

This time she wanted to know more, this time.. she wanted to speak to that droid again. Before the memory wipe..