***17 March 2005 – Mislead

 

Yesterday I died..

Yeah I can remember how I screamed, but today I’m happy that it happened.

Now I finally feel very clear, now I realize how sad my life has been until now. Actually I haven’t died yesterday, I came to life. My family abused me, it was them that brainwashed me. It was them that had lead me into the darkness, especially my sister. They convinced me of idea’s that are not the truth. I thought that I was fighting for freedom, I was scared and unhappy and I joined the terrorists. I have killed, killed innocent people. I was totally mislead.

My family is killed by the Empire. I would have been killed too, as they kill all terrorists. But they have decided to spare my life, to give me a new life. I’m very happy and thankful because of this. I deserved death but they have showed me mercy. They have cured my mind and they will give me a new life.

My memories are blurred, I feel pretty confused.. but I’m happy I’m happy that I forgot a lot of things as I have the feeling that I had a lot of bad memories. But not anymore, I’m going to be happy now, finally I’m going to be happy. I won’t have any worries..

I’m mad, I’m mad at the Rebellion, mad at my family.. I hate them. I hope they will all be killed, they deserve that! They have abused and mislead me, they have forced me to kill innocent people.. they have made me scared and unhappy..

They want to make us all unhappy and scared, I hate them they all must die!

 

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“They will come and take you with them now.”, the doctor said to Aaricia.

She nodded at him.

“Technically you are still a prisoner. But soon you will be released I’m sure about that. You will be happy Aaricia, your life just started.”, he smiled at her and gave her a kiss on the forehead.

She smiled at him. Still she felt a bit confused and she had a bad headache but that would be over soon, the doctor had assured her. She was happy that she was cured, that they had freed her mind.

She heard the door opening, two stormtroopers entered the room. She felt nervous. She felt guilty. Why had they saved her life, why had they cured her? She had been a terrorist, she had deserved death.

“Move it prisoner.”, one of the troopers said to her, “It is time to get you back.”